It's getting harder to decide on which way i should go
   Should i let myself down fast?
   I don't think i wanna know
   It's over said but understated just how hard it can be
   Hey i think i've seen this road before and it's so hard to
   believe
   I'd be back this way again after i told myself to leave
   You never said that it was gonna be easy
   But i didn't know just how hard it would be
   I go 'round and 'round
   I'm lost and found
   I'm never happy in the middle I've gotta be up or down
   Just when i think I've found level ground
   I turn around and destroy all of the life i've found
   Well self-destruction's kinda dumb
   But if you do it well
   You can find heaven if you can handle hell
   It's all a part of understanding
   just how strange life can be
   Living a lie becomes so easy
   but now i just want to be free
   I feel inside out never thought i'd doubt
   my ability to work it all out
   Going forward to fall back
   working hard to relax
   I never thought that i would be following my own tracks
   it's going 'round... It's going 'round... It's going 'round